cherrixbluntz

wow what a week. or past 2 weeks. im havin hell week goin on  =/ .  stayin at my dads n my girls.. goin back n forth. the ex keeps wantin me to come back, blah blah.. i gotta be strong this time.. i aint havin it.  but thats a whole other story. i hope u guys had a good easter weekend. my trans on my car went out on sunday!!! im so salty  >=|   its a 02 grand prix GT…. wit 220,000 heheheee my babys a beast. i love that car. but now i gotta put her to rest  -tear-

i been stayin @ my dads past couple days, cuz thats where my car is sittin. i have been lookin at cars, but nothin really sticks out. im likin the 06-07 monte carlos SS, and the newer grand prix’ and g8s… but everything else is kinda EH. ima get a GM mos def…but still not sure.. gotta make up my mind. i was really hopin my car would get me to end of summer, but guess not… money is EXTREMELY tight. went over on my cell mins too…almost 500 mins over.. thats a good 200 bucks right there… i suck..i know.

i havent workd out in almost a WEEK. i feel so gross   =[   but i been so busy, and literally livin outta a duffel bag the past like, 2 weeks. today i gotta pick my gma up from midway at 630.. then go to the car dealer before they close. i gotta survey thing tomorrow. i cant WAIT for the weekend… even though i really cant do nada.. i now gotta pay the secretary of state like 8 bills for goin thru the stupid ipass when i was like 17…. or my plates stay expired  >:|   gay shit, right???

my eating has been pretty good otherwise. im not gonna lie… i ate like a hog on sunday lol. but it was soooo worth it. otherwise, ive been drinkin water n green tea like a fish. im lucky i like green tea, cuz i drink it like nothing. i had a coke to drink on monday n did like, a double take. from not drinking it in so long, it tasted TOO sweet.. like it was on a Jolt Cola level  lol… wasnt good. il stick to the agua. i think later tonite i may just go walking around my dads neighborhood, and do some pushups n crunches when i get back.

what kinds of workouts do you guys do at home??  im salty, i dont have my laptop with me, or my weights, or even my running shoes!!!!  im in a really shitty situation right now  =[   the apartment i picked out, i cant even live in… its so bogus. i hope everything gets better soon. my bday is next month, n il be damned if ima let ’someone’ ruin it…. grr.. well at least im finaly done wit my taxes…nothin like waitin til the last minute right???  haha.

so i weighed myself last nite. still at the 240 mark. good. didnt gain nothing.. but didnt lose. my birthday is next month (5/19).. and i wanna lose at least 5 lbs for it. ima do it!!!  hopefully this weekend, and days to come are less stressful. but we’ll see what happs…

you read it right!!!   i weighted myself last night… 239.5…holy s***!!!  i havent seen that number in a HOT minute. i cant beleive that on march 11, i was at 252 lbs… and just from working out at least 5 times a week and not eating everything in site like a heffer, ive dropped almost 13 lbs!!! im so happy  =]   i cant wait to fit in a size 16 again  :)   i give lots a credit to this website!!  u people are my inspiration. i was looking at some of your before/after pics like WOAH .. i can do that!!!!!

getting off the weight thing… me n the bf are broken up.. i duno if its temp, or what  =/   lots of dramz… dont wanna get into it…   but were on a totally diff level. dont wanna get into it. but i didnt eat sunday or yesterday  =[  i know thats bad, but i really couldnt. i had to FORCE myself to eat a popsicle after i worked out last night.

last nite, i walked to staples. bought a lil mp3 player for 25 bucks… i gotta mess wit it later. i did some squats, pushups, crunches, and arm workouts with the weights. and BOY im feelin it today. im stayin wit my girl yari right now… dont know whats gonna happen. im in a sucky mood, but im not gonna let that affect what im doing. she has a membership to xsport fitness, and if u bring a friend, its only a $1 enrollment fee (as opposed to the $150 fee).. so im gonna join. its a 24 hours gym!!!  and my azz, i dont sleep til like 3am. but yea.. i just wanted to share my good news wit yall. im so happy  =]  again thank all u guys for ur good words and advice. i dont think ul ever know how much it inspires me, knowing that there are people all over the country, that i dont even KNOW, that give me this kind of support. it means the world to me!!!!  and TONIGHT.. i get to see sexy azz pitbull hehehee. cant wait. il try and take pictures & post em for the ladies manana hehehehe. until then!!

So its friday night, almost 11. im so exhausted just from the week, im gonna dry my hair and go to bed!!!

well, today…success!!!!  i started running again, im so happy  =]   i walked to my landlords to give her rent…took about 15 min to get there… and on the way back i zigzagged thru the alleys (jogging) and got home in like half the time. its crazy… i still got it. i used to be able to run 2 miles like nothin… and now.. i can run like 2 mins n i get tired lol.

my thighs hurt so bad from doin squats/lunges from yesterday… just like when i first started doin em haha. i did sume pushups too, and like 75 crunches. not too bad. watching what im eating…which is going surprisingly well. it seems the more im outta the house (especially working out), the less i feel hungry. i just keep thinking *FOOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE, ITS NOT GOING NOWHERE*   lol…   its helping a lot surprisingly. i hope its nice out this weekend… theyre saying SNOW. GREAT!!!   im so sick of it lol.   id like to probably just do some walking tomorrow for an hour, then try the jogging again sunday. i know i can do it.

Also,  could anyone recomend a good mp3 player?  i need a BASIC one… i dont need one to hold a billion songs.. just something small, simple. easy to use. that way, i can work out longer without thinking about it. grrrr im getting hungry. shit!!  lol. dont wanna eat, cuz im going to bed. il just have a nice breakfast manana. my weight loss goals are being reached. im very happy the way things are going, and i cant wait to see how il look by summer. and for the rican parade/fest!!  im CRAVING some aroz con gandules right now mmmm with a pastele on the side….grrrr..   got…to….resist   lol. ima have one of these 90 cal popsicles n knock out. goodnight everyone, and thanks for the good words. they mean a lot more than you think!!!!   =]

Soooo… today is April 1st. I stepped on the scale this morning. It read 246.6. Seeing 3 weeks ago I was at 252. That’s a little over 6 lbs!!! Perfect!!!   If I can keep this up, then I can drop this weight nooooo problem.

Im kind of struck. I don’t know If I should join a gym. It’s very expensive. Talkin like… almost $300 to start.  OR do I buy a used treadmill of Craigslist with that money??  It sucks. I know things would be SO SO much easier if I got a treadmill n had it at home. UGHHHH. Money is tight right now, so I don’t know what to do.  I have been eating these “FullBars” lately. Anyone else have any results with them??  They really don’t do much for me…

I hope I can stay at my rate of losing 2 lbs a week…. by my birthday I would be 12 lbs lighter  :)   That would be the shit…. AND if I keep going this rate… lets say.. by my vacation (the last 2 weeks of July) … I will be THIRTY lbs lighter. OMG. That would bring me down to like 216. Shit. That’s past my mini goal.  I know I can do it. It’s hard work, but ima do it. I went shopping at Target last night. I was gonna get some clothes… but what’s the point if I don’t want to be that size? 

I decided, one I drop a size, Im donating my clothing. I don’t *EVER* want a reason to wear those “fat clothes” again. I hope I stay on track. I know I can do it. I always have hidden motivation. Its everywhere!!!!  Tell me why…  I was watching the channel that shows that “Jon & Kate plus 8″ show…. and I was hungry. Too lazy to cook. I was gonna make it a burger king night. A 1,000+ calorie night…. but then.. the next show to come on “Half ton teen.”

……………………lets just say that KILLED my appetite. I had some special K, apples, beef jerky, and water. That kept me nice and full. And the longer I thought about eating the BK, the more glad I wasn’t. I just need to realize I CAN do this. I will not always be here, but food will. My boyfriend is taking me out to dinner tonight. LoneStar. Ha!!!  He knows my weakness. But instead of the usually steak and potatoes and soup. Chicken & rice will be served up on my plate. Cuz that food is ALWAYS gonna be there. Maybe when I hit my mini goal, I will treat myself, but for the meantime… food is food.

Instead of wasting money on going out to eat, or fast food, I just save it. Not buying clothes anymore, til I at LEAST hit my mini goal  (thats 220 people…. 26 lbs to go). So, we’ll see what happens. I have my hopes high, and I know I can do this. It’s gonna be hard, but I know I can. My boyfriend and friends give me the BEST encouragement.

I finally got a full length mirror from target the other day… after not having one for like… 15 months no lie, lol, i was like eeeeeeeew.  i got sucha big gut  >:|  my booty got bigger too. but my bf likes it haha. Im gonna take a “before” picture this weekend, and put it up on here. Well.. break is over. Back to work. EW 

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 Well, it has been one week since I started my diet. I am happy to report I lost a WHOPPING 2 pounds!! Lol. But hey, that’s better than nothing, and you gotta start slow right?? 2 years ago, I was able to run 2 miles.. now it is a battle to just WALK a mile. I want to get back to the old me! I have been walking every other day for at LEAST 30 mins (usually 45-50 mins). Plus I have been eating more fruits, watching what I eat, and drinking water like CRAZY. But! I must say, in the week that I have started to watch what I eat/exercise, my skin actually cleared up on my face a little bit (water help, maybe??) and I generally feel good about myself. I think the water has a lot to do with it.

Before when I would eat junk, I would always feels sluggish, and BLAH, and just lay there or go to sleep. I noticed now, that I feel better, and have some more energy, and even after an 8 hour day at work, the first thing I want to do is go for a walk when I come home. I have been looking on Craigslist for a treadmill for my apt. That would be SUCH a lifesaver. I don’t have money to get a gym membership, so that would be so nice to get.

Besides running/walking, I have been doing squats/lunges (with weights), crunches, pushups, leg lifts… anything that you DONT need to go to a gym for lol. If anyone has any exercises they do at home, Id LOVE to hear em, and give em a try. Im up for anything new.
I put an picture of me (from  2 yrs ago) up on my closet, so I see that everyday, and know that I will get back down to that size, and even smaller than that!  I am a size 18 now. The smallest Ive been was a 13/14 which I was HAPPY about being that size. I have been chunky all my life, and that was the lightest Ive ever been. I think the last weight I remember being before I gained it all back was around 198. But anyways, I check this site everyday, and read other peoples stories. And I know losing weight is a bitch, but Im glad Im not alone, and have the same struggles as everyone else. Can’t wait to fit into my size 16 jeans. That will be a big step. Im definitely throwing out the size 18s and anything bigger, so that way I KNOW I can’t get no bigger, cuz I wont have anything to wear ! Lol